Alright, I am going to be honest, here. Since July 5, I could file for divorce. I still have some money to pay for the lawyer, which is okay by me. But I am still in a bind on whether it really is the right thing to do.
I have seen my husband change. (No, not just like that). He has become someone so different that I am honestly intrigued by him with the kind of person he was and who he has become. For a while there, he would be okay for maybe a week and then go back to his old tricks. But not this time. This is extremely different. I can not only see a change, but I can feel it. That's what hurts the most right now. I now know that he can treat me the way I need to be treated and spoken to, but I gave him a time limit and it is up. I just don't know if this really is the right thing to do or if we should stay married but separated. I feel like him changing his attitude is a bit of a sign but I don't know. I just wish I had definitive answers so I know what the right thing to do is. I don't want to live the rest of my life with regret. Marriage is nothing to take lightly, and I feel like I have not given it my best.
I feel like if he were to only get a job, that we could make it. I just want to know for sure. I love him with every fiber of my being. Is that bad of me?
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